Follow the bold words when having an anxiety attack.

Guide or a Poem?!

1. Cry. As much as you want without wanting to stop it. Please cry till you can finally breathe normally into your lungs.

2. Breathe. Your breath is drowning you in this ocean of emptiness but your breath is also an anchor to shore. Breathe as deeply as possible with counts till you run of those little fingers, inhale, 1...2...3...4...exhale 4...3...2...1. (https://youtu.be/aNXKjGFUlMs, https://youtu.be/vXZ5l7G6T2I)

3. Music. Might or might not help, you have to try to know what suits you.

4. Sit up. Standing still is a task we have not yet mastered, and lying down can sometimes feel like the monster from 'the grudge' is sitting on our chest. So, prefer sitting up or sitting down.

5. Write it down, help yourself or others like this case of mine, where I desperately try to scribble. You could even try any other art, whatever comes naturally after your tears. This does, to me.

6. Hugs or water, whatever you could afford will be the final garnishing to this heartfelt ode.

Hello everyone, initially I had no plans of writing this week and no motivation whatsoever. Just the usuals. However, wanted to write about my sister's healthy pasta but then someone decided to visit me.

I have anxiety issues. There, I said it. I go crazy, I experience hyperventilation and I am zoned out a lot of times while my heart pumps like a madman. My hands shake and my muscle twitches a lot of times. I have not been diagnosed or anything but the symptoms I know, are of, by my knowledge and research, signs of anxiety issues. What type, which condition, I am not sure. I am usually vulnerable on my Facebook page but this is my first time I am opening up like this. I do not want any sympathy or messages like 'why? take care etc'. The reason being none of that will fix me even though that might be sometimes from genuine care. I would like if my friends wouldn't just start conversing about me, with me and rather understand the context of the blog. I actually, call someone I can talk to, watch a meditation or wind down video etc. However, the intensity of the attack was very severe this time and both the above options were failing me.

I went to youtube, my rescue partner, and searched for videos that would stop my anxiety attack like a video of countdown breathing and surprisingly all of them began with a stupid ass intro or so many unskippable ads. Like I know I feel like dying or that my chest will explode, I don't need an intro to that nor I need an advertisement telling me to buy chicken or fishes when I am a pure vegetarian (surprisingly who doesn't eat an egg lol yk sarcasm) dying from anxiety. I only needed a countdown video of breathing.

Hence, here we are with a heart to heart blog that gets straight to the point in a hope that one day I will stop or at least slow down an attack for someone or even myself. The video link will help you breathe. And, once you are okay, you are welcome to read more of this blog and the poem above apart from the bold words. Otherwise, just bold words would be enough.

That is all for this blog. A sweet short follow up this week, with a truth about myself that I have never mentioned like this. However, having anxiety has not made me any less and I am still worthy and normal. So why not?

Thank you for reading. I know this was a very short blog but I wrote a poem? I hope that fixes your heart.

Bye-Bye

Love

Lunatica urf Aishwarya

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